Dec. 1, 2010


Today is my dead grandmother's birthday
But I found myself not feeling much like her
In my car, this morning,
I reminded myself much more of my father.
Instead of bringing coffee from home,
poured purposefully
into my "eco-friendly" travel mug,
I stopped to buy cheap black coffee
from the little Mexican food joint
on the corner,
the one with authentic dishes and
a small fire burning in a
miniscule wood stove in the brick wall.
I drank from a white styrofoam cup
that contained far too much coffee for
one individual in one sitting,
even on such a cold morning.

Days like these I am painfully aware
of the time that passes,
before our
very eyes like the lives
of loved ones
or the breath between our lips
as children blowing out
birthday candle flames,
still unaware that wishful thinking
is only prolonging the inevitable.