bruise

I need you so much closer.

A place where holding tight takes all

time and energy

Can't stand too close without

Burning apologies

Cut out those candid glimpses and

Wind me up; I'm ready to blow

Explode,

Time to go

...with you

Can't escape this

Best line of fit

Building fire in blood, in

Something higher than wild and

I remember being inside something more,

We are more than this.

And you beg quietly,

Someday you will be love

and not the sound of settling

I'm quilted into your hands

or keeping you tucked

Far too deep to mean

What I need,

But will you wait to finish

What you started,

Or is this what the cards read

to the backwards attraction of your

Glowing eyes?

So far-sighted that you can't recognize

To place trust in who or what

You recognize,

As real.

Speeding toward the line of trees,

That pale shelter

of broken down

Earth and shadow and

A love you clutch tight to

until the clouds roll in

and the bruises look understated.

Blue and plain and broken because

You can't feel this, anymore

You can't feel my hands on you

The way that I do.

And tomorrow it will all change

Tomorrow

will you look at me the same?

Tangled hair that smells of

Lightness,

Forest floor and

The dust of our affection.

Sudden gesture and I'll bruise

your faith into the right,

Read myself into your history

Rewrite this dementia.

I need to make you writhe,

need you so much closer but

Nothing makes you move further

down the wire.

Maybe we just all forgot,

we're all lost in autumn.